Sorry a head of time for typos I typed this up in like 30 mins just nonstop typing:
Maybe I should make a new intro to my blog, maybe I should explain where I’ve been but instead I’d rather talk and just spill something that’s been on my mind lately. Dreams. Why do we dream what we do? The people in them? I don’t have any answers to this but I do have a few dreams I want to talk about because either they were freaky or they were very special. I’m not going to put the whole dream just the most memorable parts.
1) My Grandfather: He has come to me in dreams and I don’t care if you believe in this kind of thing or not all I know is I’ve never felt more near him than I did in my dream. Not even sure if being around him when he was alive felt this real. Usually he doesn’t speak at all but he never has to. One dream I saw him and it felt like I was seeing him for the first time since he died and he just gave me such an amazing hug. But the 2nd time this happened in a dream I remember I was walking through a book store and all of a sudden “When you Believe” By Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey came on and I saw him sitting on a bench in the store. I sat next to him and leaned into his shoulder and sang the entire song and cried, I felt like he was trying to help me relieve the stress and anxiety I was dealing with, telling me to believe in myself through song. Not sure if he knew it was one of my favorites from my favorite animated movie probably ever “The Prince of Egypt”. But that one moment helped more than any moment I could’ve had from a real face to face interaction.
2) Death in general: I’m not going to say my mom’s late best friend was trying to contact me because I don’t think she would be happy to see me crying, but I do find it ironic that I had a dream of sitting in a car when a song began to play on the radio, Over you by Miranda Lambert. This song came out ever Cindy passed away and Miranda just happened to be one of her favorites. I woke up literally in tears I felt her presence but also felt so sad because she was definitely taken too soon. Now I get a sense of relief when I hear the song, but sometimes I still get sad. The lyrics “Your favorite records make me feel better, cause you sing along with every song. I know you didn’t mean to give them to me” I think the dream really brought this set of lyrics out to me because she did give me all her CDs before she passed, as if she knew. I’m working on loading them to my computer where I can listen to them whenever I want.
I’m seeing a trend with songs but not really. These dreams are just the most memorable.
3) The end of the world. I wanted to throw this one in because it still makes me laugh. I was either taking a sleep aid or a new antidepressant I don’t remember but I know I had bad dreams from ZZZquil and Amitriptyline. Anyways, I dreamed God was talking to me and telling me only a few would survive there was a burning bush and tsunamis (which I live in upstate South Carolina, we aren’t near the coast) but the tsunamis weren’t normal, they were green tea flavored waters. I don’t remember anything else except the waves hitting me in the face and me saying “Tastes like green tea” as if the world wasn’t crumbling around me.
Do I think dreams mean anything? Yeah I think that dreams can reflect how you’re feeling. I have really bad dreams when I’m really stressed. Like really stressful situations that make no sense at all, or maybe even sad dreams too. I do think people can come to you in dream too, especially if they left before they could tell you something. I know some people have even known when someone dies while they are asleep, they wake up to the news and that alone is creepy. But in the end I love to dream, it’s my small escape from reality and even if the dreams are terrifying I still love to see what’s going to happen next. Maybe I’m just a psychopath.
I’m also wondering why I’ve been typing for a nonstop 30 minutes. Did I mention I need to go to a psych doctor? HA…that’s a story for another day.
I wish I had more dreams but as I was typing I lost my train of thought on the dreams so I’m just going to leave it at this. But I’d love to talk more about reoccurring dreams that really puzzle me. If you know anything about dream interpretation let me know!
Sorry I’ve been away for almost a whole year. I suck. But I’m here right now, I’m not making you any promises. Talk to you sometime 🙂 Stay well, stay pain free, love yourself.